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Tuesday, March 27, 2018
276 and stagnant!
Hello everyone!
Just checking in. I've been mini slipping for weeks. No really huge horrible decisions, just a bad decision daily. I've yoyo'd on the scale over the past three weeks (I even blew up to 281 on my period!!!), but I haven't really gained anything. Ive been bopping around 276. Today is a reset....back on it 100%.
Now that we booked our plane tickets to Jamaica, and I need to take that dress to get altered....its time to get serious!!
This weeks menu:
Just checking in. I've been mini slipping for weeks. No really huge horrible decisions, just a bad decision daily. I've yoyo'd on the scale over the past three weeks (I even blew up to 281 on my period!!!), but I haven't really gained anything. Ive been bopping around 276. Today is a reset....back on it 100%.
Now that we booked our plane tickets to Jamaica, and I need to take that dress to get altered....its time to get serious!!
This weeks menu:
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
Weigh In 276ish and Pressure Cooker
Hey Y'all.
Bobbing in the mid 270 lb-ish range the past two weeks. ~sigh~
Thats ok. I realized I am going almost a week with out moving my bowels, so there is that to consider. I'm not going over my calories, but I'm not making some great choices. Like, I'll chose to have something extra...that puts me at about 1400 calories for the day.....but then I repeat it the next day. When you add all those extra calories....it is slowing my weight loss.
On another note...one of my meals was tofu with quinoa and black beans....all made in the pressure cooker. Its been such a nice change of pace from chicken and veggies!.
Pressure cooker....we LOVE our pressure cooker! We've done whole chicken, beef roasts, ribs, chicken wings, quinoa, black beans (unsoaked in like 12 minutes), and I'm chilling yogurt now.
Even my husband said he loves it, and generally speaking he isn't that enthusiastic about kitchen appliances. Those ribs in 30 mins. won him over!
Also, we went ahead and rejoined a gym. So we need to go.
Just wanted to get a quick update posted!!
Bobbing in the mid 270 lb-ish range the past two weeks. ~sigh~
Thats ok. I realized I am going almost a week with out moving my bowels, so there is that to consider. I'm not going over my calories, but I'm not making some great choices. Like, I'll chose to have something extra...that puts me at about 1400 calories for the day.....but then I repeat it the next day. When you add all those extra calories....it is slowing my weight loss.
On another note...one of my meals was tofu with quinoa and black beans....all made in the pressure cooker. Its been such a nice change of pace from chicken and veggies!.
Pressure cooker....we LOVE our pressure cooker! We've done whole chicken, beef roasts, ribs, chicken wings, quinoa, black beans (unsoaked in like 12 minutes), and I'm chilling yogurt now.
Even my husband said he loves it, and generally speaking he isn't that enthusiastic about kitchen appliances. Those ribs in 30 mins. won him over!
Also, we went ahead and rejoined a gym. So we need to go.
Just wanted to get a quick update posted!!
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Tuesday, February 13, 2018
Monday, February 5, 2018
Weigh In Day: 286.0lbs (+1.6) and I'm going snorkeling.
~sigh~
Ok.
I know this isn't fat gain. This is a temporary increase due to my new exercise gig (and the carbs and sodium from yesterday didn't help). I got a fit bit and I have been moving A LOT this past week. I am super sore, and I know my extracellular and interstitial water balance is coo-coo for cocoa puffs right now.
I think I'm going to weight myself on a daily basis to see how certain things are affecting me. Particularly carbs and sodium.
I'm just curious.
On another note. Since I'm new to fitbit, I was in two weekend warrior challenges, I won them both. That was neat, but I'm super sore LOL.
Also, I'm going to go snorkeling in Jamaica. I've made up my mind. I've been thinking a lot this weekend about things I wanted to do, but I didn't: because of my weight. I could write a list, but I won't. It serves no purpose at this time. Just know that is a thing...that has happened repeatedly.....since I was young. And it's depressing.
I just know I need to make a change. Step out there a little bit. Take a few calculated risks for a bigger payout and better experience.
So yeah. Other than that, this week has been long, but good. And gosh did I need the weekend off. I was toast by Friday.
I will see you soon.
Ok.
I know this isn't fat gain. This is a temporary increase due to my new exercise gig (and the carbs and sodium from yesterday didn't help). I got a fit bit and I have been moving A LOT this past week. I am super sore, and I know my extracellular and interstitial water balance is coo-coo for cocoa puffs right now.
I think I'm going to weight myself on a daily basis to see how certain things are affecting me. Particularly carbs and sodium.
I'm just curious.
On another note. Since I'm new to fitbit, I was in two weekend warrior challenges, I won them both. That was neat, but I'm super sore LOL.
Also, I'm going to go snorkeling in Jamaica. I've made up my mind. I've been thinking a lot this weekend about things I wanted to do, but I didn't: because of my weight. I could write a list, but I won't. It serves no purpose at this time. Just know that is a thing...that has happened repeatedly.....since I was young. And it's depressing.
I just know I need to make a change. Step out there a little bit. Take a few calculated risks for a bigger payout and better experience.
So yeah. Other than that, this week has been long, but good. And gosh did I need the weekend off. I was toast by Friday.
I will see you soon.
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
Today is the day of the fitbit!
Add me https://www.fitbit.com/user/6D7GG6
I just started so gimme some time, but I'm looking forward to this.
Doing good on the no sugar in the coffee front.
Monday, January 29, 2018
Weigh In Day 284.4 (-1.0)
I'm disappointed in this weeks' loss. I'm not sure what I was expecting.
I did some type of exercise 5 days out of this week (mostly walking the stairs at work). Maybe that is the reason why?
I never went over my calories so I'm just not sure. I know every week won't be 3-5lbs lost...that just isn't real lift.
~sigh~
I'll ride the roller coaster and just keep going.
I did some type of exercise 5 days out of this week (mostly walking the stairs at work). Maybe that is the reason why?
I never went over my calories so I'm just not sure. I know every week won't be 3-5lbs lost...that just isn't real lift.
~sigh~
I'll ride the roller coaster and just keep going.
Sunday, January 28, 2018
LULZ I can't even.
Let me tell you how habitual this late night eating/snacking/whateveryouwannacallit is. I just ate my dinner. I finished and thought to myself "OMG I'm SO full." Right....okay.
I stand up.....walk two steps...and think "Wow it's late, I should get something to eat".....are you shitting me? Like not FIVE SECONDS EARLIER....I was just thinking how full I was. WTF man WTF.
Get a damn grip.
I stand up.....walk two steps...and think "Wow it's late, I should get something to eat".....are you shitting me? Like not FIVE SECONDS EARLIER....I was just thinking how full I was. WTF man WTF.
Get a damn grip.
Saturday, January 27, 2018
Why am I stepping on the scale everyday?
I am just not one of those people. It does me NO good. Now I'm sitting here pissy because I'm "up" 1.8lbs overnight.
Logical me KNOWS that isn't the case, but emotional me is peeved.
STOP DOING THIS HOLLY.
Logical me KNOWS that isn't the case, but emotional me is peeved.
STOP DOING THIS HOLLY.
Thursday, January 25, 2018
Good day, trying not to late night snack.
Good doctors appt (it was just an annual check up). He was happy to see that I'm down 50lbs from the last time I saw him (two years ago).
I printed out my weights from the past year, and seeing that I'm losing weight from cutting calories and modest exercise; he wants me to be the "driver". He said if I hit a plateau of 2-3 months, to call him and we would reevaluate at that point. He also still feels that 1200-1400 cals a day is perfect. He feels for my build....If I consume 1500+ a day, I will stop losing.
I will be seeing him in three months so that he can fill out paperwork for this school evaluation. I'd love to be down 30 lbs by then (end of April). It was nice to see a doctor finally proud of me. Since I was young, no appointment with a physician was ever "good", I was always fat and needed to lose weight.
So with that being said, I'm writing this blog post to distract myself from the fact that I want to snack hardcore right now. I'm not even hungry....but I'd kick a puppy for some chocolate or popcorn.
The standard menu for this week is eggs/english muffin, almond and string cheese, apple and yogurt, chicken and veggie, and tuna with ranch and 2 slices of 45 calorie whole grain bread *from Aldis*.
I was off today from work, so I didn't walk the stairs. I will do the stairs tomorrow. And JESUS, this girl I'm training right now. She was such a b i t c h the other day. She didn't like the fact that I was "hovering"...ps....its her SECOND DAY on the job. This was AFTER she left pills at a patients bed side, gave insulin with out using alcohol, and did a fingerstick with out gloves. You are damn RIGHT I'm going to hover. That shit really ruined my one day off, but I'm going to let it go. It that is how she does her job....she will be given enough rope to hang herself. I should talk to education at a minimum...._sigh_
Well I'm going to watch some youtube and try and fall asleep. Have a great night if you are reading this. I will choose my self tonight, and not snack.
I printed out my weights from the past year, and seeing that I'm losing weight from cutting calories and modest exercise; he wants me to be the "driver". He said if I hit a plateau of 2-3 months, to call him and we would reevaluate at that point. He also still feels that 1200-1400 cals a day is perfect. He feels for my build....If I consume 1500+ a day, I will stop losing.
I will be seeing him in three months so that he can fill out paperwork for this school evaluation. I'd love to be down 30 lbs by then (end of April). It was nice to see a doctor finally proud of me. Since I was young, no appointment with a physician was ever "good", I was always fat and needed to lose weight.
So with that being said, I'm writing this blog post to distract myself from the fact that I want to snack hardcore right now. I'm not even hungry....but I'd kick a puppy for some chocolate or popcorn.
The standard menu for this week is eggs/english muffin, almond and string cheese, apple and yogurt, chicken and veggie, and tuna with ranch and 2 slices of 45 calorie whole grain bread *from Aldis*.
I was off today from work, so I didn't walk the stairs. I will do the stairs tomorrow. And JESUS, this girl I'm training right now. She was such a b i t c h the other day. She didn't like the fact that I was "hovering"...ps....its her SECOND DAY on the job. This was AFTER she left pills at a patients bed side, gave insulin with out using alcohol, and did a fingerstick with out gloves. You are damn RIGHT I'm going to hover. That shit really ruined my one day off, but I'm going to let it go. It that is how she does her job....she will be given enough rope to hang herself. I should talk to education at a minimum...._sigh_
Well I'm going to watch some youtube and try and fall asleep. Have a great night if you are reading this. I will choose my self tonight, and not snack.
Wednesday, January 24, 2018
Another day.
Just a little update. I walked the stairs at work yesterday, going to go at it again today. Diet is good. Those Taki's hit the spot as a late night snack (and yes I'm tracking those too). Trying tea when I get home from work, so I don't unnecessarily snack. When I get off of work at night is the WORST. I literally have to breathe through it.
Doctors appointment tomorrow.
TTYS
Doctors appointment tomorrow.
TTYS
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
An A-OK day!
Today was a good day. I went and got labs done for my annual physical: CBC, BMP, MMR titer (for school requirements), HgA1C (out of my own paranoia....I am NOT diabetic. My brother was dx'd out of the blue, and since then I get mine drawn once a year), and Vit. D. They are all perfect. Even my fasting sugar was 62. Good to go in that department. Oh, even my TSH was totally good (Hx of thyroid CA in a first degree relative).
Diet was on point. I even walked the stairs with leg lifts for 15 minutes today at work. I hope this go around is better than my attempt last week. I literally took a WEEK for my muscles to recover.
But...I'm lying here drinking lemon water and chewing some gum....so I don't make poor choices in the kitchen. Why do I get so snacky when I get off of work? I literally just ate my dinner at 2130. You know? Why do I get home and want to binge?
Is it a release mechanism from the day at work? Is it just because my husband and I can finally sit and decompress? WHY do I default to stress management with food? How do I detach myself from the emotion of food?
Special occasion's, I get it...but I shouldn't have an emotional attachment to my morning eggs. You know?
I saw a book recommended on a MFP thread....called Love Hunger. So I'm looking forward to that coming in and giving it a read.
Also, we are going to the community center tomorrow to take a look at it. For $100 a year (for BOTH of us)....you can't beat it. Even if we joined just for the basics they offer; it is literally RIGHT outside our door and is a super smart idea. No travel, no weather excuse, I can take a shower AT HOME and NOT be crunched for time. Even if we used it as a "filler" in addition to a real gym membership.....I still think its a smart move.
And I'm blogging right now to NOT binge...so YAY for a constructive outlet. I'm gonna wrap this up and hit the sack.
I hope your day is great.
WELCOME to all of my new readers! Onward and upward!!
Diet was on point. I even walked the stairs with leg lifts for 15 minutes today at work. I hope this go around is better than my attempt last week. I literally took a WEEK for my muscles to recover.
But...I'm lying here drinking lemon water and chewing some gum....so I don't make poor choices in the kitchen. Why do I get so snacky when I get off of work? I literally just ate my dinner at 2130. You know? Why do I get home and want to binge?
Is it a release mechanism from the day at work? Is it just because my husband and I can finally sit and decompress? WHY do I default to stress management with food? How do I detach myself from the emotion of food?
Special occasion's, I get it...but I shouldn't have an emotional attachment to my morning eggs. You know?
I saw a book recommended on a MFP thread....called Love Hunger. So I'm looking forward to that coming in and giving it a read.
Also, we are going to the community center tomorrow to take a look at it. For $100 a year (for BOTH of us)....you can't beat it. Even if we joined just for the basics they offer; it is literally RIGHT outside our door and is a super smart idea. No travel, no weather excuse, I can take a shower AT HOME and NOT be crunched for time. Even if we used it as a "filler" in addition to a real gym membership.....I still think its a smart move.
And I'm blogging right now to NOT binge...so YAY for a constructive outlet. I'm gonna wrap this up and hit the sack.
I hope your day is great.
WELCOME to all of my new readers! Onward and upward!!
Monday, January 22, 2018
Weigh In Day: 286.2 (-1.8)
I need to realize that motivation isn't enough. I need to make a logical plan, and stick to it.
Think of this weight loss as a job, If I don't do what needs to be done, it won't GET done.
Emotions rule too much of motivation, and my emotions can be volatile. I just can't depend on them to pull me though the tough times.
I think about school, I got done with the class portion so quickly because I made a plan and stuck to it. Why does this have to be any different?
Lets take the emotions out of it, and just start a forward momentum.
I can do this, I will do this...I'm just going to treat it like my job.
"I had the vision before the provision, keep the faith and God will keep me!"
Think of this weight loss as a job, If I don't do what needs to be done, it won't GET done.
Emotions rule too much of motivation, and my emotions can be volatile. I just can't depend on them to pull me though the tough times.
I think about school, I got done with the class portion so quickly because I made a plan and stuck to it. Why does this have to be any different?
Lets take the emotions out of it, and just start a forward momentum.
I can do this, I will do this...I'm just going to treat it like my job.
"I had the vision before the provision, keep the faith and God will keep me!"
Sunday, January 21, 2018
Oh HAI THERE 2018.
~sigh~
Welcome back!
On the upswing of the yoyo at this point, back to losing weight.
I have my annual labs to be drawn on Monday with an MD appt on Thursday. So I'm looking forward to reviewing those results.
I am currently at 286.0lbs. I swore this year would be different, I swore I would take it one day at a time.
I swore I'd lose the weight this time. But.....now I"m going to have a serious discussion with my physician. He always wanted me to get WLS, but I'm just not about that life. I'm a nurse who has worked on the bari floor, I've seen the revolving door patients, I've seen the user error, I've seen the related deaths and complications. I'm just not into that. And...my husband told me that would be a hard no and he would leave me if I ever did it. Now do I think he WOULD divorce me, no....but that's a hell of a fight that I'm just not willing to instigate.
So, come join me on MyFitnessPal @ GothicsDarkAngel. My diary has always been public, I eat 1200-1400 cals/day (based on my physicians recommendations). I eat generally the same thing everyday...so don't look at my diary for inspiration necessarily.
I need to realize I'm not a horrible person if I slip, I need to realize I can only take this one day at a time, I need to realize I am safe and it will be OK if I don't get that binge/want/craving item. I will not burst into a ball of flames if I don't get that item. It will be ok.
Welcome back!
On the upswing of the yoyo at this point, back to losing weight.
I have my annual labs to be drawn on Monday with an MD appt on Thursday. So I'm looking forward to reviewing those results.
I am currently at 286.0lbs. I swore this year would be different, I swore I would take it one day at a time.
I swore I'd lose the weight this time. But.....now I"m going to have a serious discussion with my physician. He always wanted me to get WLS, but I'm just not about that life. I'm a nurse who has worked on the bari floor, I've seen the revolving door patients, I've seen the user error, I've seen the related deaths and complications. I'm just not into that. And...my husband told me that would be a hard no and he would leave me if I ever did it. Now do I think he WOULD divorce me, no....but that's a hell of a fight that I'm just not willing to instigate.
So, come join me on MyFitnessPal @ GothicsDarkAngel. My diary has always been public, I eat 1200-1400 cals/day (based on my physicians recommendations). I eat generally the same thing everyday...so don't look at my diary for inspiration necessarily.
I need to realize I'm not a horrible person if I slip, I need to realize I can only take this one day at a time, I need to realize I am safe and it will be OK if I don't get that binge/want/craving item. I will not burst into a ball of flames if I don't get that item. It will be ok.
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