Oh HAI THERE 2018.

~sigh~

Welcome back!
On the upswing of the yoyo at this point, back to losing weight.

I have my annual labs to be drawn on Monday with an MD appt on Thursday. So I'm looking forward to reviewing those results.

I am currently at 286.0lbs. I swore this year would be different, I swore I would take it one day at a time.

I swore I'd lose the weight this time. But.....now I"m going to have a serious discussion with my physician. He always wanted me to get WLS, but I'm just not about that life. I'm a nurse who has worked on the bari floor, I've seen the revolving door patients, I've seen the user error, I've seen the related deaths and complications. I'm just not into that. And...my husband told me that would be a hard no and he would leave me if I ever did it. Now do I think he WOULD divorce me, no....but that's a hell of a fight that I'm just not willing to instigate.

So, come join me on MyFitnessPal @ GothicsDarkAngel. My diary has always been public, I eat 1200-1400 cals/day (based on my physicians recommendations). I eat generally the same thing everyday...so don't look at my diary for inspiration necessarily.

I need to realize I'm not a horrible person if I slip, I need to realize I can only take this one day at a time, I need to realize I am safe and it will be OK if I don't get that binge/want/craving item. I will not burst into a ball of flames if I don't get that item. It will be ok.