Good day, trying not to late night snack.

Good doctors appt (it was just an annual check up). He was happy to see that I'm down 50lbs from the last time I saw him (two years ago).

I printed out my weights from the past year, and seeing that I'm losing weight from cutting calories and modest exercise; he wants me to be the "driver". He said if I hit a plateau of 2-3 months, to call him and we would reevaluate at that point. He also still feels that 1200-1400 cals a day is perfect. He feels for my build....If I consume 1500+ a day, I will stop losing.

I will be seeing him in three months so that he can fill out paperwork for this school evaluation. I'd love to be down 30 lbs by then (end of April). It was nice to see a doctor finally proud of me. Since I was young, no appointment with a physician was ever "good", I was always fat and needed to lose weight.

So with that being said, I'm writing this blog post to distract myself from the fact that I want to snack hardcore right now. I'm not even hungry....but I'd kick a puppy for some chocolate or popcorn.

The standard menu for this week is eggs/english muffin, almond and string cheese, apple and yogurt, chicken and veggie, and tuna with ranch and 2 slices of 45 calorie whole grain bread *from Aldis*.

I was off today from work, so I didn't walk the stairs. I will do the stairs tomorrow. And JESUS, this girl I'm training right now. She was such a b i t c h the other day. She didn't like the fact that I was "hovering"...ps....its her SECOND DAY on the job. This was AFTER she left pills at a patients bed side, gave insulin with out using alcohol, and did a fingerstick with out gloves. You are damn RIGHT I'm going to hover. That shit really ruined my one day off, but I'm going to let it go. It that is how she does her job....she will be given enough rope to hang herself. I should talk to education at a minimum...._sigh_

Well I'm going to watch some youtube and try and fall asleep. Have a great night if you are reading this. I will choose my self tonight, and not snack.